I really can't believe your high school hockey career is over at last. It seems like for as long as we can remember, so much of our lives have revolved around hockey, and it doesn't seem real that all that can be coming to an end.
I'm not sure what we will do to fill the time that we used to spend at the rink. I'm not sure what I will do when I don't have to step over mountains of stinky hockey gear to get to the car. I'm not sure what I will do when I am no longer a hockey mom. For so long, my identity has been formed by two words: "hockey mom." There is so much meaning in those two words, and I will firmly believe that I have always been at the top of the hierarchy of sports moms because you chose to play hockey.
Because hockey moms have to be just a little tougher than their players. I know you don't think that's possible, that I could be tougher than you. You're the one doing the endless drills and getting pounded against the boards and missing the shots on goal by just the tiniest amount. How can I be tougher? Because I'm the one who's had to watch you be so tough for so long. I'm the one who's watched you skate until you could barely hold your head up straight, gassed and exhausted, and yet always ready to hit the ice for another shift. I'm the one who's had to sit in the stands and wince every time there's a collision on the ice, or a fight for the puck, or a dirty player who decides that he's going to charge you, or trip you, or take a stick to your head.
I don't think you will ever know how hard it is to watch that, but I have done it because I know that you come alive in a way like no other when you lace up those skates and put that smelly gear on and pull that jersey with your name on the back over your head. Probably the most painful thing I have ever had to do is to think about whether we should let you continue to play after the second concussion. Thinking that we would have to say goodbye to that part of your life prematurely ripped my heart apart, and I’m so glad that you were able to come back and play stronger and better than ever before.
We have had so many wonderful experiences through hockey, and met some wonderful people who I know will remain friends for years to come. We’ve been able to travel to watch you play, and we have seen you grow and mature and develop both as a player and as a person. We’ve had some great seasons and great coaches and hockey families, and some years that we would just as soon forget. But the thing is that all of those experiences, the good and the bad, have together forged you into the person that you are today. So you have to take them all, and I do that gladly. I hope you do, as well.
Mostly, when I think about you and your hockey career, I think about the determination and grit and desire you showed when you wanted to play selects. When you were not selected that first year, you embarked on a mission. You did everything you could to learn, practice, and become the best player you could be, a player worthy of wearing the DSS sweater. You took on extra ice time, you worked relentlessly, and you turned yourself into the player you wanted to be. That showed me so much about you and your character, and it remains to this day what makes me the proudest of you.
Congratulations on your hockey career to date. I know you will continue to play into adulthood and make it a part of your life. I don’t get to be a hockey mom anymore, but I know in your heart you will always be a hockey player.